When I read in the popular columns in weeklies and news papers someone interpreting dreams of others, I am really amazed. I wonder at the parochial abilities of the dream analyst or his clairvoyance! Dreams are something very personal and if anyone, at all, can interpret the meaning of those dreams, it has to be the person who has had that dream, none else. Because it is not just telling someone what you saw that would enable the person to interpret the message that the dream held for you, as it is the emotional response that you feel while you dream that sets the tone of the message. And no interpreter can feel for the emotions that the person experiences while dreaming.
To understand your dream you must know about the background or the factors that make you see that dream.
Some years back I started having a recurrent dream and this dream became an obsession with me. Every time when I will see this dream the intensity of the emotions would be more than what I experienced the last time. I would dream of having chewing-gum in my mouth and this chewing gum would get stuck to my teeth. I would try spitting it out but it would not come out. I would make much effort to spit it out but it would be a futile exercise. I would be frantic and in desperation would put my fingers in my mouth to pull it out but it would not even be pulled out. The more force I would apply, the more sticky it would seem. I would be sweating and would make one more last attempt and I would feel as something, a part of my food pipe would be coming out along with the chewing gum! I would get up from my sleep, drenched in cold sweat and would dread going to sleep again. This dream had become very recurrent and the intensity of the emotions surging within me would make me afraid of it.
In order to find an answer to my dream and what it was trying to tell me, I stated looking around and analyzed my life with some miniscule investigation. What I found was amazing. I saw my life and my dreams from some distance and found a deep relation between my dream and my life.
It was a time when I doing Ph.D. had become a professional compulsion for me but I was deferring it as I felt guilty for having neglected my kids foe a long time when I was occupied in other examinations. And now I wanted to give them my full time and energy. But it seemed as if in order to make a balance between my personal and professional life, somewhere on the way, I had lost something very precious. Though on the surface every thing looked cool and cozy but turbulence seemed to rule underneath. A turbulence that my own self was not able to recognize or see. I was happy but somewhere inside a feeling of an un fulfilled dream raised its head that my rational self would put down.
Looking at the totality of the situation, I was able to see clearly what my dream was trying to say. The chewing gum stuck in my teeth, was my creativity that I had stifled inside. I was trying to downplay my urge to do something worthwhile that I was capable of. The day I was able to listen to the message that my dream was trying to give me, I was honestly at peace with myself. I decided to start with my research work and do what I really wanted to do. The day I took this decision, the recurrence of this dream became very less and finally when I started with the work, it just vanished.
Since last many years I have not had this dream. I just wonder if I had written about this dream to someone who claimed to read and interpret dreams, would he had given me a solution for the problem? I am afraid he would not even have read the dream!
I am happy that I was able to listen to what my dream was trying to say!